Not like raging alcohol abuse or drug use self-destructive, but self destructive nonetheless. It’s frustrating to watch myself make choices that aren’t good for me. I know they’re not good for me, and yet, I still make them. I’ve been thinking a lot about why in an attempt to change the pattern, and I think it has a lot to do with why I am such a procrastinator.
I procrastinate because if it doesn’t work out, or the end result isn’t what I wanted, I can say it’s because I procrastinated. Same goes for the self-destructive behavior. I’ve been making really poor food choices and not hitting the gym the way I should. If I don’t start, and I mean really start and commit to it, then I can’t fail. I know that, but I’m not quite sure what to do about it.
I need to figure it out because I need to treat myself better!