If I spend any more time in medical type facilities, it will be too soon. My sister had surgery, my mom had surgery, my daughter had a small surgery, and then off we went to urgent care today for another small issue. Then there are the follow up appointments associated with all these things, and more surgeries scheduled for next month.
I like to think I’m a fairly strong person, but I am just so overwhelmed by all of this and the prognosis of things to come. I mostly want to bury my head in the sand and cry. Then I get on facebook this afternoon to find out that my last great aunt passed away this morning. Telling my mom was even worse as it was her aunt. And what a horrible way to find out, on facebook. Way to go family. I realize my family kind of sucks (as do I) but this is something you call people about.
As I said, I am completely and totally overwhelmed. I don’t even care about Christmas. We haven’t decorated, and I don’t care. I don’t feel like wrapping anything I don’t feel like doing anything. There are other factors and other people contributing to this feeling, but all this medical stuff is just the crappy icing on a stupid cake that I didn’t want.
Yes I’m feeling sorry for myself, and no, I don’t care. I realize that I’m always the queen of positivity, but today, I am just done.